I received a FB message yesterday at 10PM. "Thought of u today. Happy anneversary. Hope you are doing well."
I was touched. The funny thing is that TODAY is the anniversary. We were married on the 22nd of September 2001. This would have been our tenth year and its the main reason I remember September of 2001... I chuckled to myself that he had remembered and also "forgotten" at the same time. He erred on the side of being too soon rather than late. No doubt that is what it would have felt like if we were still together. Just a matter-of -fact observation, I guess.
There is no bitterness. Some sweetness. We are both where we are supposed to be in this life. Good or bad I would never go back and live my life differently and I don't lament the end of the marriage or wish for anything to have gone differently.
Strangely- this was the first year that I had forgotten... Well- there is the small possibility that I would have looked at my desk calendar today and thought about it- but as of last night at 10:03PM I was as far from that day as a person can be.
It was nice to be remembered. I know we both still care but not in the romantic sense anymore and certainly a friendship that comes with many boundaries- self imposed and otherwise. There is respect there and infrequent "check-ins" with one another and I am glad its still there.
I guess some people will always be good for your life even if its not in the role you had planned on at the beginning. Some people will always be bad for you even if they are "good guys".
My mind is everywhere with this one- though that is not an exclusive reaction to things. Makes me contemplative and calm though so I will let the thoughts come, examine them, let em go and worry not.
