So- slacking on the blog posts sucks because there is a backlog of stuff to talk about.
I set up my appointment with the doctor today. I am really trying to commit to taking care of myself and who knew that it would be the most difficult of challenges?! I am making sure that I sleep sticking to a schedule even on the weekends. I know this is incredibly hard on Jeff in some ways but he also doens't have to sneak into his own bed at night and risk a grumpy girlfriend and he can sleep at strange angles with all for limbs extended to the max so hopefully its not TOO terrible. The eating is tough but I am cooking more and doing better. It really helps to cook lots on Sunday that I can take all week for lunches. I am having my thyroid tested and joining the fitness challenges at work.
I kind of put off having my thyroid checked in case there is nothing wrong and I am just heavier from shear laziness but now I have a sense of urgency because my periods are irregular and I worry about possible fertility problems. It sounds so silly seeing all of this OUTSIDE of my head but hey- I know that I want children and I am 30 and the time qwill be within the next few years so it can't hurt to be prepared. I was able to get pregnant before but- and maybe the is because of the circumstances around that pregnancy- I am now freaked out about the fact that I only had two scares in 10+ years of sexual activity... It probably sounds crazy and desparate but honestly its a fine blip on the radar most of the time but I am spilling it all out in one post so it seems crazier.
I don't really want to be crazy. God forbid that I be "normal" but I still don't want to be crazy.
